Tuesday, January 20, 2015

A Somewhat Uncomfortable Scene

I decided to write this piece today for two reasons. One is because I have seen an ad on television recently about domestic violence. It is heart wrenching. Secondly, I am in the midst of reading a book this week that touches on the subject. I believe strongly that women (and perhaps men in some instances) deserve support in ending the “hearts and flowers” cycle that often occurs when domestic violence is left unheeded. Below is my attempt at writing a short scenario.

When the lights went out suddenly that night, Kate promised herself things never would be the same, but most likely she was wrong. Frozen with fear, she had sat alone in the darkness for what seemed an eternity. It wasn’t. She waited only six hours, until dawn, until she was able to ease herself from the couch where she had shivered in the night cold afraid to move, afraid if she did he would come back. She could not bear that.
No sooner had Nick slapped her hard, did the house go dark as though some phantom had snapped off the electricity signaling that indeed this was perhaps the end. Their bickering that night had escalated into unrestrained anger.
“You are pathetic, Kate,” he spat.
“And you’re a psycho,” she retorted.
When his eyes had drawn into slits, she knew instinctively what was coming. It was not the first time. She watched, as if in slow motion, his arm rear back and then come at her. She reeled from the sting of his hand on her face, but at the same time reached out for him, her fingernails being her only weapon. She did not reach her mark, however, for he shoved her to the floor too quickly for her to connect. He whirled around then in a furry, tearing toward the front door that slammed firmly as he exited. She crawled on her hands and knees, in a black silence to the couch where she huddled, knees drawn to her chest, her arms holding them tight, and her back wedged against the cold leather. After the tears, in time, all emotion left her, but she was not without feeling. Her throbbing cheek had her attention.
When finally she moved at daybreak, she walked stiff and achy down the hall to her bedroom. The mirror reflected what she had feared. Her cheek bore a purple bruise and her eye was hemorrhaged. She knew it would take days for the blood to absorb, and until then, she would have to improvise a whole slew of excuses. A few began to take shape in her mind, but vanished immediately when she heard the door open and listened as Nick’s familiar foot pattern brought him closer. When he stepped into the room, her body tightened and she turned toward him, secretly hoping he would be appalled at the sight of her injuries, that he would be sorry. If he were worried, however, not a flicker of concern was discernable. It was as though Kate were invisible. He strode past her, looked at her sideways, smirked, and she understood.
She walked like an obedient child to the kitchen where a dozen pink roses and a tiny, stuffed teddy bear awaited her approval.

It was a new day.



Friday, January 16, 2015

A Writer’s Conversation With Herself

Write the first line and everything else will follow.
That’s true until it isn’t. 
Why do you say that?
Because.
Because why?
Today I don’t have anything worth writing.
Yes you do.
No.
Yes. Keep writing.
I don’t want to write.
Write anyway.
Okay.
What have you been considering?
I’ve been thinking about . . . nothing.
You have to be pondering something.
Everything. Can’t focus.
Pick one thing.
People.
Okay. So what about them?
I don’t understand them.
That’s it?
Yes.
Pick another.
Potholes.
Potholes?
Yeah. I hate them.
That’s pretty random.
Well, I do. They screw up my alignment.
Go around them.
Not always easy.
Make an attempt.
Not easy, like people . . . sometimes.
Now you’re talking.
I’m not. I’m writing.
Ha! So what’s the problem?
People.
You’re going in circles.
Yes.
What about people?
They should be nicer.
Who?
The ones out there in the world
Who in particular?
The violent ones, the news grabbers
They’re misguided.
No conscience.
Gets to be much sometimes.
All the time
That’s life.
People are potholes.
Potholes?
They do damage . . . sometimes.
Not everyone
A few do.
Avoid them.
I’m going to close the door now.
And hide?
Retreat for a while
And then?
I think I’ll write.
Write what?
            A character sketch
Ha! Do that.
Sneaky, aren’t you?

                                                                        Judith DeChesere-Boyle, January 2015







Sunday, January 11, 2015

On The Week of January 5th
           
Some weeks are better left behind. Gone. Done. That is how I feel about this past week. Oh, I won’t forget this week that we (some of us) have survived, although it’s not quite over yet. (I am assuming of course, that the first day of the week is Monday, leaving Sunday as day seven, but of course I may be incorrect. In a previous blog, ironically posted a year ago, on January 10, 2014, I blathered about my confusion about what, indeed, is the beginning day of the week.) Not wanting to get sidetracked, however, I will continue.
This week has been unforgettable to me, for we have been shaken once more by events that make me believe our world is unraveling at the seams. The horrifying massacre in France has had many of us staring at out televisions and grappling with belief systems that we cannot understand . . . at all! Why, how, could this happen, yet again, in a civilized world? Oh, perhaps that’s the problem. “Civilized” implies being cultured, educated, refined, enlightened, polite, urbane as opposed to the opposite: barbarous. So what’s gone wrong? It has happened on too many days to count, locally and abroad.
When I walked my dogs this morning in a forty-nine degree chill, greeting neighbors and strangers with “Good Morning” and “Have a great day”, I had to wonder why some people choose intimidation, violence, hatred, and murder over goodness itself. Clearly it is naiveté on my part but I truly cannot understand.
I have to be honest. I started writing this blog on January 10th. Today is January 11th . I just want to post, get it over with, and start the next week, of January 12th on a better note.
To good things . . .



Tuesday, January 6, 2015

On Being Alone Sometimes                                           


Being alone
Isn’t so bad
Sometimes.
I like it.
Our world,
Full of judgments,
Innuendo,
Labeling,
And lack of compassion
Makes me crazy
Sometimes.
And I pull away.
I can do that
And I like it.
No need now for
Conversation,
Conflict,
Disagreement,
Despair.
All by myself
I reflect,
Reason,
And ponder
What I don’t understand.
Sometimes
Solitude
Need not be sad.
No.
It is a salve.
Seeking a silent space
Soothes
Sometimes
And I like it.                           
                                                            Judith DeChesere-Boyle, January 2015